this week Taylor swift released her version of her red's album.
Me, as swifties, of course, dwelling in her new album and sing my heart out loud, and remember what my twenties were like. this album first came out when i was .. 23? or maybe 22? i don't remember exactly, but i do remember when i sang her songs out loud in my room and i ended up cried all night, thinking about my heartbreak and my life back then. and like any other fans out there, she was like represent me when she sings, "... And maybe we got lost in translation. Maybe I asked for too much. But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up...."
there were times, when i cried myself to sleep while playing this song on repeat. there were times when i was singing her "22" song in the middle of the night, dancing in my room until I'm tired and sleepy, because i cant sleep that might. there were a lot of times, i got heart broken and listened to her song on repeat until next morning. there were time when i busy karaoke her song instead of doing my college assignment.
you see, Taylor swift songs are my heartbreak anthem. and no, red is not my soundtrack of my twenties, but it does bring me back to my twenties. thus, there i was, reminiscing the moment when i were in my twenties, all the dramas, the heartbreak, the moment, relieving the memories and emotion that comes within, all weekend.
and suddenly i see the bigger picture.
red is an album with heartbroken songs in it.
Taylor said, she wrote it when she was heartbroken and it's all over the place. and she was right, because that's what happen when we were in our twenties. our feelings are all over the place. we were trying to find a place, between become an adult and growing up from teenage role. and when love comes.. it will get messy. sometimes we get too invested, get attached too soon, love too much, and ended up getting hurt. but isn't that worth it?
doesn't all those heartbreak worth it?
with opened up your heart, feeling something rare, something real, something that make you feel alive, excited to live the day. that text or phone call that makes you glow and smile all day. the feeling of falling in love. those sparks, butterfly in stomach, those fireworks when we kiss, doesn't all of that worth it?
we learned how to mend broken heart. we learned how to picked up the pieces. we learned to fix whatever mess we made. we opened up our heart and get heart broken, and it's okay. that's what our twenties for. for us to fall in love and learned from it.
it's okay to fall in love.
it's okay if it gets a little messy.
it's okay to get heartbroken.
it's okay.
because that's life.
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