When I met him, my crush, I already decided from the start that this going to be a story of a crush. A falling in love story, with no ending nor beginning because I didn’t have any plans to begin with. All I wanted was to enjoying the feelings and all those stupid things I do when I fall in love and enjoy every little things that happened. Everything.
It never occurred to me that everything is going to be this way.
Never occurred to me that I‘ll be falling too deep with my heart become the leader.
Never occurred to me that it’s going to be this hurt and it will be a lot of tears.
Never occurred to me that this feeling will grow into something bigger and stronger, so when it comes a time to say goodbye and moving on, I will feel this hard or this sad.
So, here it goes… my final goodbye to my crush.
Thank you.
Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. For always solving things that bothered me. For always helping me with your own way. For the feelings you gave me, for the smiles, the laughs, and for all the time you’re spent with me. I am so sorry if I ever hurt you in any way, because I never meant to. Thank you for cared for me, with your own way. Everything that’s happened between us, will be ours forever. At least I won’t forget those, will you?
When I think about what could happen between us, there are a ping of sadness and a little bit hurt. I think we both know about what’s happening and what could happen if we were acting accordingly, deep down in our hearts. We are just… keeping each other in a bubble, hoping that it won’t hurt if someone leave. We tried to guard our hearts without realized that we already give a piece of it to each other. Otherwise, it won’t be this hurt or sad to saying goodbye, would it?
I am sorry I cannot wait for you any longer.
I am sorry that this thing between us, cannot happen the way we wanted to be. The way you wanted to be. I am sorry if I messed up with your heart and your feelings, believe me, I never intended to do that. If I knew sooner, maybe I will act differently.
and thank you, for hold my feelings dearly.
Take care, will you?
I never imagined myself saying this, but I think this time words will only understatement what happened between us. Whatever happened, it carved something in our hearts with our own feelings. It’s seems like unimportant little things, unnecessary details, a little act we do around each other, it was nothing, but it touched our feelings, mine at least, and I believe feelings never lie.
Take care 'Yo :)
