it's been a year since i tried to do healthy lifestyle, it comes with some consequences that i didnt expected it. i want to share some changes that happened to me after i tried this healthy lifestyle. some changes that the marketings and media 'forget' to shows us behind those slogan "healthy lifestyle' trend.
i know that this changes is personal and maybe not everyone who is doing healthy life style got this changes, or maybe they have another personal changes that i don't have. and it's okay. i just want to share my experience and changes I'm having, that shocked me at first. before you ask, I'm not doing some extreme diet or changing lifestyle completely. all i do is being more careful about what i eat and how much calorie i spend in a day. i make sure to exercised at least five minutes a day. i also make sure that i eat veggies and fruits at least once a day. i am not literally say no to junk foods, but after doing this for months, junk foods has disgusting taste for me, ahahaa.
I mean, it's still taste good, but it's taste no longer satisfy my bud taste. i still eat pizza and burgers, but if i used to eat two slices or more, now i can only eat one slices. second slices won't taste as good as one and i will get itchy if i eat too much carbs or junk foods. last particular issue become a problem some times. like when it was late at night and the only food stall open is fried rice stall, or when I'm craving fried instant noodles, or eat too much pasta, or eat junk foods for binge eating weekend.
at the gym, i spend most time trying different classes or jogging on treadmill. i tried to use personal trainer at first, but it doesn't what i imagined. i love exercised, and fall in love with the process when I was exploring what kind of exercised suit me best, i do, but i don't really like fitness activity like squats, plank, or heavy lifting or else. apparently, those are exactly what you do in gym, with or without personal trainer, with or without equipment's. and apparently, those fitness activity I hate are the ones which will help you to build your body.
i told you that i don't know what to do in gym, it's still true, but i found that I'm enjoying this exploration journey. besides fitness activity, i found some classes that I'm enjoy doing it. like flying yoga, bosu, and combat. i found that even though i love to dance, but i can't dance at all!! i love dancing, but it's hard for me to remember the steps and moves. i always messed up in Zumba class. i also fall in love with yoga, and i found that fast walking on treadmill can help reduce your stress and focus your mind.
i didn't feel significant changes in weights while I'm having personal trainer, but my flappy arms do reduced. i can wear my jackets more comfortable than before. some of my clothes also look better on me, while some of them look ugly because it looks baggy. and of course my legs are looking good with all those squats and planks i did.
then, the worst thing happened to me; my boobs got smaller!!
so small that i have to buy new bras because the old bras' cup look bigger now. when i realized this in changing room at gym, i was shocks. i called my friend and not understand why this kind of things happened to me. i love my boobs. it was big and beautiful. why the fuck i have to give that up?! why is not those fats in my thigh? or those flappy arms? god.
another problem, i do have emotional eating. i eat when I'm sad, stress, or angry. yeah, basically i always eating. since i do this healthy lifestyle, i cannot eat too much. sometimes i ended up ordering too much foods for binge weekend, with so much leftover. sometimes i stayed so long at gym, doing every exercise i can, join every classes, to clear up my min on bad days or to relieve my stress and anger. so often, I ended up have goodnight sleep :p.
i was torn at first.
that was one of my goals, to relieve stress at the gym, and of course I'm glad that i achieved my goal, but.. you know that feeling when you are so lazy to get up and only want to curled up in bed, with your favorite serials and those your favorite junk foods? i kind of sad that i can't do that anymore. my skins will get itchy, so i ended up just watching with a lot of leftover.
also, about my boobs.
it turns out changing lifestyle is not as easy as i thought. i mean, i know it will be hard, and I'm enjoying the process, but the result sometimes not what i thought it would be. i don't believe it when my friend told me that I'm skinnier, because i don't feel like that. months goes by and i heard somebody in change room whispered to her friend, that my body is curvy, so sexy. i did feel that my waist is start to show, so..emm.. thanks?
i also realized that want to be skinny and changing lifestyle is not always mutual things. for example, my trainer's goal is to reduces my weight. that's why she has been make me working out with those heavy lifting, equipment and fitness activities. while i am focus to change my lifestyle habit. what is important for me is eating healthy, exercise regularly, and changing my way to relieve stress. that's totally two different things to focus on, and i want you guys know this: healthy lifestyle doesn't always have skinny body as results.
if you want skinny and build your body, those trainer's and gym activities help. so much. that's why people hire personal trainers, they want to build their body. skinny arms, toned legs, flat stomachs, and so on. if you only want to be healthy, you just need to spare your time to exercised regularly. it could be morning run, late night run, jog around office, or doing plank every morning.
sometimes we confused then mix that two things and think that they are mutual. i got question a lot like, "i heard you are going on diet and busy in gym, why you don't look skinnier?" this type of question frustrated me at first. they make it seems, like i have been doing useless thing all this time. when i realized that they are two different things, i was like, "o yeah? hmm..."
no wonder I become healthier but not skinnier. which bring me to another question, so which one what i want to reach? being healthy or become skinny?
which one are you?
