"i was surprised when you ask me to meet! how are you? you've been disappear, do you know that?" my school friend ask me, right after we say hi to each other. "really? i did off social media, few years back. i started to use again last year, then i found you."
in January, i meet up with one of my school friend who i haven't been in contact for a loongg time. like she said, i have been off from any social media, maybe that's why she called me disappeared. it's been a year since I'm back using social media, and i think i need to rekindle those mended or forgotten relationship. i mean, there's no something wrong with catching up with an old friend, isn't it?
when i asked her to meet, i was so scared that she will be saying no or thinking that I'm a freak or worse, want to meet her with some hidden agenda. fortunately, she said yes and we were talking about our life, the past, i was laughing so much that night and come home with a big smiles. i do hope she feel the same.
the funny thing, we almost not talking when we were in school. i mean, it's not like we were in the same group or in the same class. i found her Instagram, followed her and she followed me back, and we started talking over dm and i asked her to meet. can i talk about feeling here? it felt happily awesome. i cant believe that meeting an old friend can be interesting and fun like that.
another school friend, who inspired me to have this idea about connecting with old friends, ask me to meet him few months back. unfortunately, i was in bad place, so instead of saying yes, i ran away scared and (maybe) hurt his feeling. after my catch up, i kind of understand where he was coming from. i feel terribly sorry and hope that we can meet in another time. lucky for me, he said i have been forgiven, I hope he is sincere. next time you are in Indonesia, I will contact you to catch up, promise.
i think we all can agree that anything regrading relationship has never been easy. either it's old friends, colleagues, co-worker, boyfriends, exes, parents, siblings, even bestfriends, each has its up and downs. good relationship is result of a lot of effort to keep it going, from both sides. it is relationship anyway, it takes two to tango.
anyway, one of my goal this year is to catching up with my school friends as much as i can. i have been off too long from society and social media, so it is kind a little challenging for me. please don't run away scared if I suddenly call you and ask for meet up. but if you don't want to, it's okay too. if you are one of them and reading this, and want to meet me too, either to catch up or to fix any unfinished business, feel free to contact me first. i promise to not run away anymore.
-xoxo
