45 minutes a day, on Instagram

do you know a little feature on Instagram that show you how much times you spent on Instagram?

i was planning to de-active my Instagram for a month but it doesn't seems to work. every time i have done de-active my account, few days later i want to open my Instagram and post some story. and then, i found this feature and set for 45 minutes a day. at first, it's really hard to do it! i cant even see all of my friends story, only a bit. not even a half. so, in that 45 minutes i have choices:

a. see all timeline and people's story but not post anything b. make one or two story and see half of my friends story c. make one post and see half of my friends story.

as you see, turns out, there's no much i can do with 45 minutes. but in the other hands, if i just want some leisure time to watch my friend's up to with their posts and stories, 45 minutes turns out to be plenty.i always spend more than 45 minutes in Instagram since i started this challenge, until few days ago i realized, i am too busy to scroll in Instagram and therefore, spend less than 45 minutes a day.

okay, what's the use then? am i happier? or something big happened?

nope. but i do feel more productive, less anxiety if i post something nobody likes nor understand, and it's also easier to say or have fuck off attitude. i mean, these days, people say anything crueler, they see what they wanted to see, and believe what they wanted to believe. whatever explanation you have, it doesn't matter to people like that. and me, being (only) 45 minutes in Instagram a day, it's easier to ignored them and be myself when i am going to post something. people doesn't need to agree or likes or understand my posts or my story, and if my post made them have some perception of me, then it means i write some good story. so good, that it has effects on people.

so, do i have to be mad for that?

as far as it goes, i like the latter the most. somehow, it feels like a piece of me back. when i was spend too much time on Instagram, sometimes i feel loose myself when i post something and all those things fly in; is it good enough to get likes? how people will see me if i post this? what caption do i have to write to get likes? and so on.

so yeah, i think I am going with this reminder for every day life ;)