the title it self sum up my life this year.
working on myself never feel this hard, at least for me. there are lots of ups and downs this year, but thankfully, my goal achieved. many things i want to write, to tell, but... people say that our biggest enemy is our self, and i agree. there was a time when i thought that my time to fight is over. that, for once, i can be peaceful with myself. but i forgot one thing at that time, that we change. i changed. i could never stay the same, if i were, then that means im not growing up.
working on myself is a constant thing.
as long as we're growing, old or up or change, for the better or worse, we always have to fight for peace within ourself. for me, one of many ways is to accept. accept what we've done. accept what happened. to accept what we lost, what we get, or what we've been through. we accept ourself, and then we can make peace with ourselves. well, thats my theory.
and it was never easy thing to do.
if there are one thing i learn this year, is how to keep fighting. to not lose hope in the midst of chaos. to walk into the future and accept the past. even what happened yesterday. and for me, that's one of hadest task to do.
the wound still fresh. the memory still there. it feels like my whole body wants to hate that particular moment, to cry, to dismiss and.. i have to accept that it was beyond help. that is done. nothing we cant do about it except try to accept and face the damn thing.
maybe time will heal, maybe time will not. we will never know if we not try, rite?
for you who are going through something, I pray that you will not stop, that you will not lose hope, and keep trying. trying to be the best version of yourself. to get out from toxic relationship. to get out from depression, to get that dream job you always wanted. cheers to good life and cheers to us ;)
