today i got vaccinated.
as I'm waiting to get vaccinated, looking around me, i started getting emotional, then it hit me. this corona virus, this pandemic, is real. and it's about getting very very real, real soon. i mean, i followed #stayathome since last year. i never going anywhere except grocery and office. it feels like i live in the bubble. my bubble.
because of the quarantine, i got a little scared every time I'm going to public places and in the crowd. at some point, i even think that I'm scared of people, but.. aside from that, i never thought much about pandemic. in Indonesia there are no lockdown, everybody still doing activities like normal life, some people don't even bother to do physical distancing and wearing a mask, - i know, it's frustrating, right?- so, maybe i never really think that we are in pandemic. i mean, i know that this virus exist, people sick and die from it, but... again, this time it feels real, but the whole activity feels so surreal.
the doctor explain to us, one by one, by speaking, about vaccine and its effect to us. there might be hundreds of us, and it's already a week. she is doing it everyday. since 8 am until five pm. and yeah, i know it's their job, but still... they are human. speak about things again and again, repeat it before hundreds of people.. it's not easy. I'm sure it's tiring though.
this event make me realize what situation we are in. people died suddenly. hospitals rooms are overloaded. i know people die all the time, but not like this. government say that he cannot do lockdown because our economy will die in five years if we are doing lockdown. but, if there are no lockdown, economy can sustain and make other citizen live until fifty year. yeah, we already at that point, where others who died are count as collateral damage.
cannot say that I'm fully agree, but i cannot say that it is wrong. however, millions, billions, of people are living in this country. sacrifice has to be made sometimes.
i hope we all are healthy.
it's very expensive these days.
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